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I was clearing my inbox, when I came across a message my dad sent me on my first day in jc. He said "Study hard. God loves you". It didn't really strike me the first time I recieved it, but reading it today did.

Even though a week has pass since I entered school, I think I have failed everyone. Though I chose this path, I truly felt that God had guided me this way. But im not very sure what lesson he is trying to teach me. Perhaps He is teaching me to be more independent. Or perhaps He is saying that the world is not as kind as I see it to be, and not everyone I meet is gonna be a true friend.

My first week of jc was pretty bad to say the least. And starting with the end in mind, is no where close in my mind.

I know I have been blessed in more than many ways than one. And all I ever want to do is to make my parents proud. Though I have never been smart. But I never ever want to be a burden to my parents.

They have blessed me with so much, and often I take them for granted. And I guess my only way of repaying them, is by being good and studying hard. But I fear if one day I should fail, I would have nothing to show my gratitude to them, and they would have 3 pathetic daughters and perhaps feel that they have failed in bringing up children who are respected by society.

So today, I mark a start of a Stronger Justina. And that means No More Crying. Chin up, and have No Fear. Cause even if it pushes me to the edge of my life, I just want to see parents happy.