You could say I need time to adjust to my new surroundings, new syllabus, new subjects, new approach to teaching, new curriculum. As much as I have tried, I still feel rather alien. I hate sitting in lecture rooms, filled with God knows how many people. I just hate it. Classrooms were built for a reason people.
And what sucks the most, is that I have deduced that jc is not one place you want to make true friends. Its every man for himself. So can anyone please understand why im feeling so down? I so freaking miss all my friends. Just typing that makes my eyes well up with tears.
Im not very proud to say this, but I come home EVERY night, crying my eyes out. Everyone has put their faith in me, but I have failed them. I remember reading Val's message on the train, tears in my eyes. Even the simplest message of love can make me tear. All I have to say is that im thankful for all the loves in my life.
-You're Treasure-
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