Through It All

Admitting to my loss of faith, I fell on my knees and prayed.

Not knowing if it would even reach the ears of the Lord.

Not thinking much about what I did the night before, I went about my day as per usual.

Than someone came back to me.

It only hit me after switching the computer off.

From the bottom of my heart, I thanked the Lord.

Jc has really tested my faith.

In addition to failing every single subject, I failed the most important core subject in life.

I failed you, Lord.

Today I stand before you, with my life in pieces.

On my part, I will spend 10 hours fixing my jigsaw life.

In hope that you'll spare 1 minute to help me.

Cause I really cant do this by myself.

Take it to the Lord in prayer

This is Ground Zero

I cant even believe im doing this.

Im tired of this life.

Im tired of going to a place were all I see are lies and fabricated stories.

Im tired of not getting the attention I need.

Im tired of feeling invisible.

Im tired of proving myself.

Im tired of screaming my lungs out, cause whats the point, no one listens.

Im tired of not getting things the way I want them to be.

IM FREAKING TIRED OF BEING TIRED

Why the hell do you guys try to sympathise for me, when you guys arnt even there when I need you. Ya you can repeat that "you know what honey, although you feel lost in this big ocean, God is always there. He will never leave you. He's there to save you" Oh great thanks. Leave it all to God so that you dont have to do anything. Thanks for feeding/clothing/paying for my tuition fees. BUT ALL I BLOODY WANT IS THAT YOU ARE THERE TO LISTEN TO ME! Asking for that is like asking for the sun and moon combined. Great, I just created my own ocean at 1.25 in the morning.

I cant do this on my own.

Delayed Childhood

Oh crap, I slept the whole of yesterday night. And ya, NO WORK DONE! shitshitshit. Okay from Today onwards, its an OATH.

I WILL STUDY LIKE A DOG

Justina, you are gonna disappoint everyone if you don't get promoted. What the hell are you doing sleeping? You're eyebag reading is just 7mm? Who cares if its 2mm more than what you achieved during the O levels. You had better bang hard on those books now!

Okay after I post this.

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I had this dying crave to feel like a little school girl again. Don't laugh! So I bought myself some $20 white Bata (buy and throw away) shoes. Wheeee. These shoes are more comfortable than my tenthousandpound nike sneakers. Im like the super outstanding person in jc. While everyone is wearing sport shoes, Im wearing white Bata shoes. Whooo.

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Huiling Darling came over to my place yesterday to help me read my Chinese passages. Yup. So kind of her, right. Our late evening snack.
The biscuits are super cute! Actually there is one missing. the one and only pathetic camal in the whole packet. Sigh. Addicted to these bisuits. Love!So we were waiting for her bus, when my King drove pass. Yeah, I pushed Huiling into the SLK and off she went. I hope huiling told my dad about good Justina. haha. Thanks my darling! I can always count on you for some Chinese help, Lovie dovie

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Mooncake Festival is tomorrow! Lantern carrying and mooncake eating. Can't wait. My King bought me my Goodwood Park Hotel 4 eggyolk mooncake. Egg yolk is love. Plus my Queen made a little green frog(thats me!) lantern for me to play. haha. Such a kid man.

Okay, STUDY!

A special good luck to baby love. We will survive promos togerher.

Ulric Sunshine. I need your daily Midnight calls.

Stressed Out

Wooooo.
Met boyfriend today.
Feel kinda bad cause I didn't really eat much of the food which he paid for.
Ya and at the end he was scolding me. Oh wells.
Finding it difficult to get lost into his mesmersing eyes cause of his growing eyebags.
Maybe, its mutual, my eye bags are just as bad.
Im gonna take a ruler and measure my eyebags daily.

Holidays are ending, bummer.
Need to find ways of getting MC for a month so I can cook myself at home to study.
Any suggestions?
Promo's are coming!


NOTE TO BOYFRIEND
In response to your question,
I want to get promoted, so we have to get promoted together baby.
At the most I'll just transfer to your school for J2.
Trust me, I will.
Eat more Smarties baby love, they'll make you smarter.

oh snap, I just did another bf post.

Okay, next post shall NOT be on bf.

Hang in there people!

Notes Piling Up

Justina's great organisational skillsG-TEC-ER!

Okay this is damn hilarious. I showed Aloysius these 2 pics, and he said. "I see lipton tea, my fav". "my fav pen". Woooooo.

Gonna return boyfriend his notes tomorrow, plus get more notes from him. LoveLove. What will I do without him.

I suddenly realise that bf is taking over my blog. haha

Okay and Im missing Xianglin.

I love listening to Akon's Sorry, Blame it on me, when I do math.

Bf sent that song to me.

Remembering when he sang it in the Art Room.

Those were the great times we all spend it the Art Room.

Right Xianglin?