This is Ground Zero

I cant even believe im doing this.

Im tired of this life.

Im tired of going to a place were all I see are lies and fabricated stories.

Im tired of not getting the attention I need.

Im tired of feeling invisible.

Im tired of proving myself.

Im tired of screaming my lungs out, cause whats the point, no one listens.

Im tired of not getting things the way I want them to be.

IM FREAKING TIRED OF BEING TIRED

Why the hell do you guys try to sympathise for me, when you guys arnt even there when I need you. Ya you can repeat that "you know what honey, although you feel lost in this big ocean, God is always there. He will never leave you. He's there to save you" Oh great thanks. Leave it all to God so that you dont have to do anything. Thanks for feeding/clothing/paying for my tuition fees. BUT ALL I BLOODY WANT IS THAT YOU ARE THERE TO LISTEN TO ME! Asking for that is like asking for the sun and moon combined. Great, I just created my own ocean at 1.25 in the morning.

I cant do this on my own.