I Miss...

Even though I said that the day I stepped out of Zhonghua was the happiest day of my life, I take it back.

Honestly, going back was comforting to my distressed soul. Familiar grounds where I have played, loved and studied at. Familiar faces, liked or hated. Its just the whole aura that makes me feel secure.

I Miss... walking down this block every morning.

I Miss... the invisible line we drew around the study benches outside our classroom, that gave us the authority to hog/study on them day and night.

I Miss... studying hard TOGETHER. The support we gave each other was priceless.

And I Miss... THIS BENCH, at the study corner. The memories surrounding this bench is endless. With much joy its has brought and the heartache it represents, I love this bench. If I could buy this bench, I would.

It was when I was talking to Lao Shi, that she opened my eyes to why I'm feeling the way I do. She said that I have grown up in a secruity zone for the pass 5 years hence I find it so difficult to let others in. Cause even though a few of our classmates change, its just between us 2 classes. N1 and N2. So there wasn't a need to worry about making friends as we have been friends already. Thus going to a jc was a 'cultural shock' for me. And while other students had 2 months to adjust to a jc system, I was only given 2 weeks. Plus it's alright to fail in jc. She said that if the teachers in innova arn't willing to help, she told me to come back to ask my Zhonghua teachers.

(Can you believe this?! I wonder if I can study for my A levels in Zhonghua. I want Miss Ong for chem, Miss Ting for physics, Mr Lim for GP, Mr Wong for math, and lastly, my favourite 'fish' Lao Shi for CLB. hah!) (okay okay, I need to come back to earth now)

Moving back to what Lao Shi said about friendships, She said she believes that Secondary School Friendships are the purest friendships you can make, and "think of jc as a mini society, you will find all the 'funny' characters there". Than she reminded go out and have fun. Cause even if my classmates don't have a life, I need one. "Try to keep sane, in this insane world".

And the best advice she has ever give me, was, and always will be, "Justina, please remember to sleep. You need to rest." haha. And I nod obediently.

I guess I'm typing whatever she says down for memories sake. When a day comes when my head is just saturated with useless info that I'm not gonna use on a daily basis, and when I feel that all is lost, atleast I have some wise words to read. Oh well, Lao Shi is just a call away anyway. When I wasn't sure which jc to go to, she was the first person I called for help. Chinese on top of the worry list, she took the effort to find out if I could do CLB in any jc. Not forgetting the CLB 'liao' she got for me for the O levels. I'm thankful to God for blessing me with a teacher like her. And I know she almost fainted when she heard I passed my CL with a C6. There's nothing much to say about God and the miracles He does.

Its ironic how the Best Teacher I ever had taught the worst subject I ever did.

-I Miss...Zhonghua-