Not Alone

3rd Cheer practice, if you can see, the other BIG bruise has sort of subsided but I got a new bruise right beside it. Sigh
4th Cheer practice, we were traning on the track for Sports day. Bigger Sigh
I remember carrying this paper bag holding apple muffins to school a long time ago. Those were the times...
Have you ever felt that you have failed so much that you have become numb to it? I never enjoyed this feeling but it seems like I have to live with it from now on. Gone are the days when I did well for my tests, dreading it everytime I collect back my tests.

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I may sound anti-social saying this, but I have learnt to distance myself from my classmates. I just never really felt that bond with them since day one and it doesn't seem to be changing, so I will hang with them, but when it comes to studies, don't expect alot from me.

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Sometimes I wonder if there is that kind of bond found in this world anymore, especially as we get older. Yes we are growing, and our minds are matureing. But it doesn't mean you have to be boring. In the eyes of our parent, we are still kids, and I'm sure all they want to see is that we are living life to its fullest potential, as well as having fun.

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A classmate of mine came crying to me the other day, she told me that her close friend said that she wasn't giving much into their friendship. All she did was take when her friend gave. I had a little silent laugher in my heart, and thats not because I'm mean or anything. It's just that its so obvious that she lives her life just between her home, school, her stupid bf who she doesn't call bf for some stupid reason. Obviously I didn't tell her that though.

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At this point in time, I guess I should be telling everyone that I will make an oath not to give up on my studies even though I'm failing super badly now. Determination is the key Justina, yes it is.

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