Not Alone

3rd Cheer practice, if you can see, the other BIG bruise has sort of subsided but I got a new bruise right beside it. Sigh
4th Cheer practice, we were traning on the track for Sports day. Bigger Sigh
I remember carrying this paper bag holding apple muffins to school a long time ago. Those were the times...
Have you ever felt that you have failed so much that you have become numb to it? I never enjoyed this feeling but it seems like I have to live with it from now on. Gone are the days when I did well for my tests, dreading it everytime I collect back my tests.

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I may sound anti-social saying this, but I have learnt to distance myself from my classmates. I just never really felt that bond with them since day one and it doesn't seem to be changing, so I will hang with them, but when it comes to studies, don't expect alot from me.

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Sometimes I wonder if there is that kind of bond found in this world anymore, especially as we get older. Yes we are growing, and our minds are matureing. But it doesn't mean you have to be boring. In the eyes of our parent, we are still kids, and I'm sure all they want to see is that we are living life to its fullest potential, as well as having fun.

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A classmate of mine came crying to me the other day, she told me that her close friend said that she wasn't giving much into their friendship. All she did was take when her friend gave. I had a little silent laugher in my heart, and thats not because I'm mean or anything. It's just that its so obvious that she lives her life just between her home, school, her stupid bf who she doesn't call bf for some stupid reason. Obviously I didn't tell her that though.

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At this point in time, I guess I should be telling everyone that I will make an oath not to give up on my studies even though I'm failing super badly now. Determination is the key Justina, yes it is.

-Give Give Give-

Accident Prone

The DANGERS of Cheerleading.....

I would just like to notify everyone that I'M NOT A FLYER!!!!

Okay I admit to being a little annoyed, but whatever, maybe I'm just fat, or I'm short so I have better C.G so they use me as base. And I'm freaking literally carrying a girl on my shoulders, ALL BY MYSELF, and she's BIGGER THAN ME! Thank God he blessed me with stronger inner strength so I can lift her up.

A little note for my 'ahem'(I though I divorced him a long time ago, but he doesn't want to let go)hubby, I won't know how to land the next time you throw me into the pool. haha. Go figure the link.

So the flyer kicked my wrist not on purpose when I had to catch her legs. And than...
That was my first cheer pratice, mind you.

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Next cheer practice...

Cause I had to carry another girl on my shoulders.

I have no idea what I'm doing.

-Justina means Pain All Over Her Body-

Reminise

I Will Remember You

-Ryan Cabrera-

Eight years later

Time goes by fast

Got my memories

And they will last

I try to keep it simple cause I hate goodbyes

I try to keep it simple by telling myself that

I, I will remember you

And all of the things that we've gone through

There is so much I could say

But words get in the way so

We're not together I will remember you

I will remember you

We're a picture in my mind

And when I wanna find you I just close my eyes

You'll never be that far from me

So don't say goodbye cause

You'll never be that far from me I'm telling myself that

I, I will remember you

And all of the things that we've gone through

There is so much I could say

But words get in the way so

We're not together I will remember you

You were there when I needed a friend

Thank you, thank you

I never told you how much that meant

God thank you, thank you

I will remember you

And all of the things that we've gone through

There is so much I could say

But words get in the way so

I, I will remember you

And all of the things that we've gone through

There is so much I could say

But words get in the way so

We're not together I will remember

We're not together

I will remember you

I will remember you

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-(Will You?)-

Biggest Smile, Deepest Happiness

Huiling said that Ben has lost weight, and I didn't believe her at first. But after comparing it with a pic from our 5n days, I will have to agree with her on that statement. hahahaha.

I do admit to being pretty down since I've been back in school. The people you meet there are just so different from the ones I'm used to. Gone are the days where it was all innocence and fun, its now all just dog-eat-dog.

Well, I ended school early today, God knows when I'm starting my cheerleading practice(yes, you heard me right). It so happen to be Zhonghua's Sports Day too. So without second thoughts, I was on the train heading to Serangoon.

Hmm. Who knows when was the last time I saw the Soccer Gang? I actually forgot. Oh wait, it was at Ben's bbq not too long ago. haha. Oh well, it seems like ages to me. The word 'Happy' doesn't come close to what I felt today. It was like that missing part of me was found again, and I have never smiled so much and so long since our Zhonghua days. It was like a life in full circle. Perhaps its just been a long time since I sat with people whom I know of that don't have ulterior motives.

(I don't want our next meeting to be during Teacher's Day. If you were to ever make the time for me, I would make time for you. I have learnt my lesson, I would never push my family and friends aside for the sake of my studies as what I did during the O levels. Lets just say I'm trying to strike a balance now. You should know better, and that is that I will still care for you, be there for you like I have always been. I've stuck with you thick and thin through this 5-6 years and it wouldn't change. )

Sometimes I forsee/fear the day when we go our separate paths. Cause I only have a small pool of friends and I am pretty much close to them, hence it's so difficult when the situation is just out of my control. If you can see, I'm not betting much on my friendships in jc so you guys are actually all I have. On the day that I die, I don't think I would have 5 big buses of people following me to be cremated, but it'll just be comfort to have my small circle of friends and family.

Ok. I need to stop.

My last 2 Pictures!

Yuhang trying very hard to understand why I only play Bubble Puzzle on any game console that walks the earth.

-I drew a new face and I laughed-